Day 32, stage 1

I feel better this morning, but still achey. In fact, most of my right side hurts. I also need to stop occasionally eating a spoon of honey. I have a little and it doesn't even taste good. And it makes me feel like crap. So what is up with that? Willpower, that is what it is. I wish I had some. I also want cream. Okay, I want a few things. I am also feeling very emotionally down. It is a sucky way to be feeling. Not surprising though. I have always hated February. February hates me. I wonder if there will ever be a February where I feel happy? Hmmm? Will it happen? But for right now, I just feel crappy in most ways possible. Yea!! Crappy feelings tend to bring out the snarky sarcastic side of me. Lets hope that the kids wake up in a more not so hyper way today. No such luck. Kids crazy. Me crazy. it just wasn't a lot of fun today. The girls still had a lot of problems getting school done. I am not sure what to do. Last time we went through gaps we were taking school very slow, but we have sped up quite a bit the past year. I kinda want to take a break because it is stressing me out so much. But then I am worried about getting them off of a routine. They tend to do much better when we school everyday. We have been taking weekends off since Jack started working. I don't know. We all had some cashews today also. Probably didn't need that. Jack also went to the coffee shop, which we thought was a real coffee shop and I just wanted a coffee with cream, that isn't what I got because they only have coffee machines so it was all fake stuff with sugar. Ack!!! I am kinda upset over how much the conference seems to have messed us up. I have noticed that since the coffee my patience is GONE. Uggg. Okay, I am going to write what we had for dinner, pork and butternut squash. I was hoping it would help. It hasn't. Today is what I call closet days, or Mexico days. I just want to go away.